Dear next boyfriend,
I want something like this on our 1st anniversary.
Love, your next lovable and sexy girlfriend. hahaha
When the thought or idea of our chance being together enters my mind, I can’t help to feel a little sad. It’s been nearly 2 years and you still have this effect on me. It might not be that intense as it was before but somehow, it still there. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I have accepted the fact that there’s a very thin possibility that we can be together, maybe there isn’t at all. I know you’re already with someone and I’m very comfortable with us being friends. I guess it’s just that our story is like one of those books that I will never get tired of reading. It’s like watching Lilo and Stitch- no matter how many times I watch it, it would still make me cry at the end part. That’s the kind of effect that I’m talking about. Sometimes nga I’m wondering, how is it possible for me to have these feelings for someone I don’t get to see and be with? This has supposed to be gone way back a few months ago or last year even. Or maybe it’s because it was half a nice and happy story/experience that is worth remembering. I miss everything about you.
Please stop denying things, lalo na sa sarili mo. You still have feelings for him. You still miss him. Admit it. So what if siya pa rin ang gusto mo? Wala namang masama dun and wala ka rin namang magagawa pa, diba? Bakit meron bang switch button ang puso na pwedeng ma on or off? Asa ka pa. Okay lang yan, wag mo kasing kontrahin ang nararamdaman mo kasi the more mo na kino-control the more na lumalala yan. “Sa sobrang pagpigil, lalong nanggigigil”, nga diba? Kaya hayaan mo lang. Do as you please. Okay lang kahit ayaw na nya sayo, kung may iba siyang gusto, kung hindi man magiging kayo, ayus lang yan dear. Kung sa ngayon siya pa rin ang nagpapasaya sayo in the most simple ways, kahit ultimong pangalan nya lang makita mo sa notifications mo sa Facebook then stick with it. Ngumiti ka kung napapangiti ka. Kiligin ka kung kinikilig ka. Wag mong kontrahin. Wag kang magpadala sa isa sa 7 deadly sins which is called PRIDE. Maghintay ka lang. Hintayin mo lang dahil dadating din ang araw na ibang tao na ang magpapangiti sayo nang hindi mo namamalayan. Magugulat ka na lang, trust me.
Nakakainis ka! haha Yun lang. Pero di na rin naman kita masyadong crush ngayon pero meron pa ding konting natira. hahaha We don’t talk and we have no communications whatsoever and that makes it more thrilling. Pero take note, a crush is just a crush, it’s not like I faint everytime we touchh? hahaha WTH! Nahyper akong bigla. Pero, wolo long. Ang cute mo lang kasi. LOL
I miss you. And I hate spending Father’s Day not being there to hug and kiss you or to hand you my little gift or even say “HAPPY FATHER’S DAY DADDY!!”, in person. It really makes me sad especially because your already growing old and that’s ceaseless. I just remembered how much time we’ve spent apart. Remember when even we we’re already in secondary school, you and Mama still wake up early just to cook us breakfast? I miss your cooking btw. :D We also used to sit together and watch “Kampanerang Kuba” and the other one “Maging Sino Ka Man”? I know we have been a big pain in your ass sometimes and I’m sorry. I’m sorry if there were times that we took you for granted or said things that we shouldn’t have. Thank you for being the best that you could ever be! You will always be our first love Dad. I wish I would also end up with a man like you. We will always be there for you and Mama making all our dreams and plans come to life. HAPPY FATHER’S DAY! I love you always Dad.
You should love the person who has been with you through the most trying times. Who lied just to make you feel better, who never stopped believing in your weird, complicated excuses, who faced the consequences of your wrong doings, who encouraged you to stand after every downfall, who managed to be the stongest even in our weakest moment. Love this person, for this person is all you got in your darkest hours. Want to know who? Face the mirror. That person deserves your love too.