There was this one time that I fell in love with a guy- wait let me rephrase that. There was this one time that I really liked a guy so much that I was really crazy about him. Yup, that’s more like it.
Anyway, of course my male buddies knew about it and I can always remember them telling me that if there’s a guy that I like, I should introduce him to them. So it came to a point that they did meet him. Unfortunately, most of them smelt the unpleasant he’s-a-jerk stench on him- that he’s a bad news. But there was me, too blinded by my romantic, young, not-so-wise, twitterpated, hopeful emotions, trying to defend him. My friends only warned me. Of course they didn’t stop me from seeing him or anything. Surprisingly(?), he turned out to be a jerk. Wait, no. Actually, he was not a jerk. Who am I kidding? He turned out to be a complete a*hole. (Yes, I said that with a smile on my face. Hah.) I was completely devastated that time. Luckily for me, I was blessed with my awesome friends and male confidants to get through it. To me tell how I should be more careful with guys the next time. I mean, I’ve seen them in their jerk days too. They’re no saints. Like what Sir Ramon Bautista said, all guys are jerks or has the potential to be. Just pray that during your time, they decide not to be one.
Moments like those, even how negative it was, I’m really thankful it happened. Because if it didn’t, I would probably make a lot of stupid decisions now or in the future. I think if I was myself a year ago, with that same mentality, I would probably sow a lot more regrets. And thank goodness for my friends. For helping me divert my attention to food! Urgh. 2011 was my fattest year. But undoubtedly the best!
“You deserve a guy who is good for you.Don’t settle for anything less. Don’t rush. I know waiting is not easy but trust me, it’ll be worth it.”
You guys have no idea how much I miss everything about our friendship. I just can’t wait to go back home and just chill together. Get drunk on Fridays, sober up on Saturdays, go to church on Sundays and have dinner after. I miss our random drive around town, how we’d just text each other and have lunch or just pull off such unplanned yet super fun food trips. The kind of friendship where we can just go up your rooms because the family knows us already so we can just crawl up in your beds and wake you up. I wish we could watch movies and HIMYM all day and all night again. I miss how we’d hangout from afternoon until the morning because we’ve already fallen asleep and nobody wants to wake up to drive us home so we’ll stay until breakfast. And oh, of course, our night swimming sessions! Remember whenever any of us feel stressed and need a good night swim? And we’ll just swim together. Floating on water, facing the night sky full of stars and talk about anything! I miss how I can just snuggle and make “lambing” with you guys without any malice at all. And I will never forget listening to all your disgusting yet awesome boy talks. I seriously learned an awful lot of stuff. I always miss how Kuya P would cook us everything we crave for. And you might think it annoys us sometimes but your being protective of us is very much appreciated. I can only get absolutely drunk with you guys. I can because I know I’ll be safe and will be taken care of. I miss how spoilt and pampered we were by all of you. I’m just very thankful that God has blessed us with people like you. Some might think that you guys just fool around most of the time and don’t take things seriously but we on the other hand are VERY much privileged to get to know the real you better. Get a part of your awesomeness! I can honestly say that I have slightly matured more since the time we met and got really close. It’s the type of friendship that I will always treasure. I’m grateful for how you guys see us as a person. How great of a person you see us as - no add ons needed. I wonder if anyone can actually see that too. I miss you guys. I really do. And it makes me really sad whenever I remember all the good times. But it never fails to make me smile inside. I love you all. I can’t wait to be back.
PS: Sorry for any typographical and grammar errors. Too tired to proof read.
Love, Au.
“When I was younger, I grew up with the idea that getting a lot of girls and getting want I want from them will make me feel more of a man. Normally, every time I wake up with a girl next to me, I get all hyped to tell my buddies about it. The more girls, the better. But then one morning, I woke up, with a naked girl beside me - I couldn’t even remember who she was. I sat on the side of the bed, thinking. I thought to myself, “Why am I doing this? What am I doing here? What the fuck is she doing here?”
I realised that I’m done with my insecured days. I don’t have to prove anything to myself anymore. This has no substance at all. I want something real.”
It’s not just about where you are. For me, what matters most is who you’re with.
Beach + rides + sun = FUN!
We were supposed to watch the air show at Seaburn today but we had a late lunch at a friend’s house and when we got to the venue, the show was already finished. Yes, I was really gutted I didn’t see it and I will have to wait for next year again. But thanks to the beach and the rides for saving our day! :D
I was surprised to see an awful lot of people there. The weather was lovely, we felt like we’re on a holiday! Although some of our friends didn’t get to go, we still manage to have a lot of fun with Rex and his sexy biceps. hahaha!
We went on Skype with Mark, Brian and Anghel. Syempre full of kabaliwan na naman and talks. But what I really loved about the convo is all the random pieces of advice they gave us as a friend…
“…pero I’m not saying na you should close your doors. All I’m saying is just be cautious.”
“…wag kayong masyadong mag bigay ng trust sa mga taong dinadaan sa text or sa chat yung pag diskarte nya. If he wants to get to know you, eh di he should visit you there in Capiz. He should make an effort. I don’t see text or chat as an effort. Ano lang naman yung 300pesos na magpa-load ka? It’s really not an effort. It’s only money.”
” As I have known you girls naman, hindi naman kayo yung tipong uto-uto na kayo mismo yung magbibigay ng effort. Make the guy do the effort.”
“…there’s nothing wrong naman if you’re being friendly with them. Kayong dalawa naman kasi ni RR, very friendly naman eh. Pero kung baga, if they think na “ganun” kayo, who cares about them? Sila yung nag-iisep at nagmimisinterpret ng pagiging friendly nyo. So, if they think na easy kayo because you’re like that, then obviously, they’re not the right guys that you should be with.”
” Hayaan mo lang sila kung anong isipin nila. Di mo naman kase mapipigilan na friendly ka eh. Just be yourself.”
” I’m not saying that you guys should cut them off. Who knows? 50/50 kasi yun eh. He might be a good guy and he might be a bad guy. But you to still make room sa pagiging a little bit sigurista.”
“Basta just be friendly like and just be yourself. Wag kang kumagat bigla. Don’t get mixed up between love and infatuation.”
“Ngayon kasi ang dami nang mga goldfish na girls eh. Whenever we guys get to know the girl, all we get is just the zipper. Parang malabo lang talaga, parang flat line lang talaga.”
“Even if you meet a person and he comes off as great and awesome, gwapo, maganda or whatever, aabot talaga sa point na makikilala mo talaga siya. If you get to know a person kase, it’s either baka sobrang boring nya or sobrang goldfish nya or he or she might be someone who is worth getting to know.”
“I really don’t see you girls na parang mga goldfish. So baket hindi kayo bigyan ng effort ng mga guys?”
Me: Pero, how would you really know if the guy is worth it?
“Always remember, that if a guy really likes you he will say anything para maattract kayo sa kanila. They could say na “I’m like this, I love that. I like watching sunsets and walking on the beach”, all those kind of bullshit which are so cliche dba? Pero, ang babae majority sa kanila they would tell the truth about themselves. Always put in mind that if a guy tells you something truthful about them, or anything na masama sa kanila - kase diba if a guy is courting you, he will say all the best things that you would want to hear. But if a guy tells you about his bad side then that’s a good start. It’s like you would think na, “Okay, this guy is showing me all the bad stuff about himself” and at that point, it will be up to you to accept him as a friend. At kung na accept mo siya sa phase na yun, then ang next step is to get to know him better. Same din yun sa inyo, if he accepts your bad stuff, then next level na yun. Then, if sa getting to know stage, you guys tend to talk about anything under the sun, without any dull moments then it’s a good progress. It’s all about conversation. It’s okay to know the bad stuff first para you will think to yourself na, “Okay ba ko jan? Am I comfortable with that?”..It’s all about talks lang talaga.”
“If he really likes you, then he should make an effort. Kasi pag alam nya naman na worth it ka? Then why not go there diba? Ako I could save up for a girl that I like. Even though it’s traditional, dapat yung lalake pa ren ung nagsusuyo sa babae. You should put worth sa sarile mo. You know you’re worth. Alam mo na by the time that that guy wins your heart, kahit anong hirap pa yung pinagdaanan nya, he knows that it’s worth it. Hindi ka naman yung stereotypical na bitchy girlfriend. So yung pinaghihirapan nila to win your heart, it’s all gonna be worth it talaga. You know that in yourself.”
“Hindi ren maganda pag masyadong sigurista kase you will realize, things are too late na.”
Ang habaaaaa! hahaha but really, I’ve learnt a lot. :D
