So what if I’m still single? Is being in a relationship obligatory? Am I going to get persecuted if I don’t have a boyfriend now? If no then shut the fuck up about me being single already. It’s not my fault I don’t want to give false hopes to the guys who like me. It’s not my fault I only want to date Erwan Heussaf or Chris Hemsworth or Ian Somerhalder. T_T But seriously though, I believe God knows the right time when to give me the next man that will make my heart go “lubdub” again. I may complain about being lonely sometimes but I’m not in a rush at all. So do you mind?!
Or the Premenstrual Syndrome. It’s like my second monthly enemy next to the menstrual cycle itself, of course. Those annoying things girls feel 1-2 weeks before their period which I definitely think I have right now. I don’t normally count my cycles but it’s usually on the first half of the month. But yeah, I just know from the bottom of my uterus that I have it especially that I’ve been having these bastards lately :
1. A noticable spot on my nose. T_T
2. Easily irritated.
3. Loss of confidence. (I don’t know if it’s just me but I feel so ugly and fat days before my period.)
4. Feeling all sad and emotional. :(
5. And the worst of all, FOOD CRAVINGS. I just can’t feel any satiety whatsoever! It’s crazy!
Nakakainis ka! But then again, it’s amazing how after all this time you still have this effect on me. Na touch lang ba ego ko or talagang bored lang? Ay ewan. Makatulog na nga. Good night.
One thing I like about myself is being able to be in control in everything-even my feelings. But that’s just at the start. And that’s the scary part, once kase na bumigay na ko, things tend to go wrong. :(
This is actually really important and shouldn’t be rushed at all. It’s stressing me out. I feel really pressured, it’s not healthy anymore. I can’t seem to do anything right. -__-
Because I have been on YM sa Blackberry ko for ages, I forgot my password na. Tanaaaa! Nakakaines na. For how many days na ko nagiisep kung ano man yun. Ni try ko din yung security question thingy pero ayaw din. Fuuuuuuuuuuuuu!! Pero makaka OL pa ren ako sa BB nga lang. But I can’t go on it sa laptop. Di ko na ren mababasa mga archives ko! BOYSET! Whyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!
Alam ko yang feeling na yan. Lagi na lang. Lagi na lang.
THIS. NAKAKABWISIT. =_=
and he’s all about her her her her her!
…is so nakakapressure. Kakastress. God, please please give me the strength and sense of focus. Konteng tiis na lng.
So you really think sending me unflattering words and hate notes will make me feel bad about myself? WELL, COOL STORY BRO. :P I’m pretty sure that you’re just one of those people who got nothing better to do with their PATHETIC LIVES so they tend to mock, banter and pull people down WITH THEM just for the sake of their own sick pleasure. I’m sorry but GOD gave me confidence and there’s nothing you can do with that. Deal with your own insecurities cos whether you’re beautiful, average or “ugly”, but with an insecured heart? Trust me, you’ll still be the latter part. ;)
The truth is, people will always give you nasty remarks. If not yet, then time will really come that they will. Yes, it will sting and hurt. Most people hates to admit it but it does. Deep inside, it does. That’s normal though, you can’t help that cos we’re only human beings and we do have the privilege to feel hurt. However, like what Eleanor Roosevelt said, “Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent.” If you only know yourself, your strengths and weaknesses then you’re good to go. You just have to know where you stand.